Monday, January 04, 2010
First of all, I would like to wish everyone a Happy & Joyous New Year! =)
Met alot of new friends in school today... as well as bumping into one of my old friend, Cindy Zhang at the school bus stop. LOL. Unusual practice from Tim and Dinesh... lol. Them staying back in school to revise on some problematic maths questions. hehh!
It is indeed an unusual Monday to start off the week with.
Oh well... the usual Mon/ Tue/ Thur/ Sat school-thing is back! Gosh! Mann... lets grit it over with yea?!!! The module will only take ard 17 days to complete. so yupp!!! be brave, Deanna!!!
Something I don't understand lately... or perhaps to say that... something that I have to figure it out myself. I just don't understand why and what is happening to us. How can one changes his mood so suddenly. What have I done wrong? What should I do? Why is it even happening? Can I do something to prevent it? Is it even preventable?
I don't know. seriously... I really find him sweet for staying over and wait for me till my class ended today. I wanna let him know how grateful I am... and how sweet and supportive he is as a boyfriend to me. But seeing his expression changes almost instantly... I don't know what I should do now. Should I even call him and ask if he's feeling better? or would that irritate him further?
what should i do now. =( I'm feeling pretty upset now. sigh. could one's sweetness possibly be able to withstand abit longer to last for the day? or am I asking too much? I don't know... I just wish for a day where everything could end nicely with a pleasant full stop. We used to have those days almost in those earlier days... could those days be what many people have been talking about? the honeymoon period? sianz... if that is so, then I would really surrender myself and announce that my honeymoon period is over! It is so difficult to prolong happiness between us now. Yesterday was a lucky day... even though his mood wasn't very appealing in the noon but his happy mood returned shortly in the evening when he met me. And now I feel like a cinderella who lived in a fantasy world with my prince charming yesterday and earlier this evening... with now that everything's over, thunder and lighting strikes all of the sudden and turn him into a grumpy dwarf! oh my... what kind of tragic love story is this. sighh...
My new year resolution would be to not only do well in school and at work but also to understand men better. sometimes, I just feel that it is all ME who causes such sudden change in his sudden change in attitude afterall. without my existance... would he be feeling happier? if he is to be with some other girls, would he be reacting the same way as shown to me? what would be a best option for him then? if not, where should I be starting from... to understand more about his change in behaviours...
Please feel free to drop me messages if you have any ideas on how I should do to understand men better.
Thanks!
from the lost and tired girl
1/04/2010 11:15:00 PM
