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Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Really cannot take it anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ROARRR!!!!

IT'S SO NOT FAIR!!! This just tells you everything!
Nothing's fair in this world! You may work as hard as anyone in here!
May even be having a harder time studying after work! BUT YOU WILL NEVER GET REWARDED FAIRLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Damn discouraged now larh... in my pit bottom now.
sianz. Not gonna even waste my time working harder today.
SCREW IT! I hate this place!

1/19/2010 09:30:00 AM

Wednesday, January 06, 2010

For some reason, I just can't concentrate at work now.
the deprivation of sleep that causes long hours of day dreaming at work. haha!
tick. tock. tick. tock.
may 6pm strike quickly. (zzz...)

yesterday was our 30th month anniversary. yup.
we've reached the big THREE. can you imagine how much time flies?
mann... both of us are so busy lately that it is difficult to find a time that belongs just for US.
really hope that we can pull through this tough period together and live happily ever after.

well... since I'm having problem concentrating at work, may as well take this opportunity to jot down my 2010 wishlist... :) hehh.. a sleepy one needs inspiration and motivation ok!!! LOL.

1) Score well in school
2) Be promoted at work
3) Own the SIMS 3 adventure expansion pack
4) Own the halo camera (can't remember the exact brand actually, its a plastic manual camera that provides interesting effects.- leave a msg if you knw the brand ya? thx!)
5) Get more sleep
6) Hang out with more friends
7) Win fantabulous lucky draw prizes at my company's D&D next week =)
8) Watch AVATAR in 3D!
9) Watch Alvin and the chipmunk II
10) Shop for more clothes!!!

1/06/2010 03:08:00 PM

Monday, January 04, 2010

First of all, I would like to wish everyone a Happy & Joyous New Year! =)
Met alot of new friends in school today... as well as bumping into one of my old friend, Cindy Zhang at the school bus stop. LOL. Unusual practice from Tim and Dinesh... lol. Them staying back in school to revise on some problematic maths questions. hehh!

It is indeed an unusual Monday to start off the week with.
Oh well... the usual Mon/ Tue/ Thur/ Sat school-thing is back! Gosh! Mann... lets grit it over with yea?!!! The module will only take ard 17 days to complete. so yupp!!! be brave, Deanna!!!

Something I don't understand lately... or perhaps to say that... something that I have to figure it out myself. I just don't understand why and what is happening to us. How can one changes his mood so suddenly. What have I done wrong? What should I do? Why is it even happening? Can I do something to prevent it? Is it even preventable?

I don't know. seriously... I really find him sweet for staying over and wait for me till my class ended today. I wanna let him know how grateful I am... and how sweet and supportive he is as a boyfriend to me. But seeing his expression changes almost instantly... I don't know what I should do now. Should I even call him and ask if he's feeling better? or would that irritate him further?
what should i do now. =( I'm feeling pretty upset now. sigh. could one's sweetness possibly be able to withstand abit longer to last for the day? or am I asking too much? I don't know... I just wish for a day where everything could end nicely with a pleasant full stop. We used to have those days almost in those earlier days... could those days be what many people have been talking about? the honeymoon period? sianz... if that is so, then I would really surrender myself and announce that my honeymoon period is over! It is so difficult to prolong happiness between us now. Yesterday was a lucky day... even though his mood wasn't very appealing in the noon but his happy mood returned shortly in the evening when he met me. And now I feel like a cinderella who lived in a fantasy world with my prince charming yesterday and earlier this evening... with now that everything's over, thunder and lighting strikes all of the sudden and turn him into a grumpy dwarf! oh my... what kind of tragic love story is this. sighh...

My new year resolution would be to not only do well in school and at work but also to understand men better. sometimes, I just feel that it is all ME who causes such sudden change in his sudden change in attitude afterall. without my existance... would he be feeling happier? if he is to be with some other girls, would he be reacting the same way as shown to me? what would be a best option for him then? if not, where should I be starting from... to understand more about his change in behaviours...

Please feel free to drop me messages if you have any ideas on how I should do to understand men better.

Thanks!

from the lost and tired girl

1/04/2010 11:15:00 PM