我不想谈恋爱了.

tired.

sigh. i need as much concern from him as he needs mine.
why is it so hard for him to do that for me?

why. why is it always like this?

i guess everything is not important anymore.
we hardly celebrate monthly anniversaries.
they are not at all important anymore.

i dont know why either. since things are like this already, so i shall let it be how it is then.
i dont see any purpose for me to look forward to it at all.

why bother when no one cares a fuck about it.
yes. just let it be as he wants.
am not gonna put in any effort in this relationship any longer.
let it just fade away. im tired.