i have to keep reminding myself.


my stand. my goal.




recently... things just passes in a glimpse. >.<

i could hardly 'pause' it. phew***




i must JIA YOU!!!!! everyone lets JIAYOU!!!






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your eyes met my eyes at that very moment.


at that moment... i felt as though my eyes were talking to your warm smile.


telling you that every trouble i've had thru' arent important now. i've got you.


true that i know. i'm not your right one.


and you don't belong to me.


but still... sigh***

heee.. im feelin' so much better now.
>.< after a long break. hoooosah!


gonna start work tml!!!! YEAHH!! i miss my desk!! i miss my people there!!!!! :D




with only 29 days left. hmmm. i needa enjoy em'!!! :D


wait for me!!!!! i'll turn the office upside down tml! yeahh!!!






life. hmm. i feel like im leading my own life now. :)


my own life. own story.


(smile)

presenting... 2D + J

Dee has never like surfin' net. lollx.


but out of nowhere.. suddenly.. i wanna search for this person.


and guess what? heeee** i FOUND IT!!!!


lalalalalaaaaa.. its not tt hard to surf for people after all~ :P

Deanna Lim declare herself sick.


booo**


sick. sick. sick.. zzz. i hate being sick.


cant taste anything.. no voice to talk.


imagine that..omg.. omg!!!! its like hell to me!!!!




and for that.. i've got 2 days mc. >.< doctor said i need plenty of water n rest or else the fever wont go off. hmm.. siannx.


rather be in the office. sighh**




my darlin' yansze called me in the late morning.. asked me out for lunch. BUT!!! i'm not workin today ehz.. zzzzzzzzz.. zzzzzzzz.. zzzzzz. sighh**


missed so many things today. :(






** I want cafe cartel's hot choc with many foam when i've fully recovered!!! I bloooody swear i'll go there just for the sake of their hot choc with many foam!! lollx!

i'm having sore throat now. no longer minor. loll.


i can feel the sore at the brim of my throat.




feelin' a little unwell.. but!!! i must go for band today. geeez. >.<


my cuzzie is going as well. heeeee!! yeah yeahh!! i've got my companies!!!


lalalalaaa.. feel great!






*** received calls in the morning. poutx. a call from work which woke me up completely!! damnn! loll! i forgot to give them the contact person's number.. so they've actually reached the place.. and then called me where to put all the banners and stuff.. :S


i didnt know i needa arrange all these ehhz.. zz.. thought that indie will be doing all these. zz. thought he ll be there!! wtf*** but anyway. everything solved already larhz. and i cant sleeeep now. loll!!!! alwritee.. im gonna watch some anime(s) before i start preparing to go out! heee. another long day. gonna meet a friend after band ehh. hahaaa!!


ciao~

woohooo!!! lalalallaaaa!!!


i think i did a great job at work today!! heee***


that indiee was kinda contented with my work. hahahaaz**




everything was under my control. phew!


manage the people.. making sure that everything looks good. hoooosah!!


i did it! (blinkx)




and then.. though im having minor sore throat today but it seems that my appetite isn't affected. hahahaaz. :P ate lotsa lotsa lotsa lotsa fooooood.. > . <


lolll!! thanks for the company dude! i appreciate it. loll!!!

to listen.


to think.


to feel.


and to make the right decision.


i guess its a very tough job to do ehhz.




this entry is for my troubled friend.
hmm.. think, listen and feel. i believe you can make the right decision. make the right friends.


even if you miscalculate some.. dont worry. right friends will understand you. (smile)

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gonna meet joelle later.. at 7.30pm.
phew.. and im still in the office. zzzz.. DIE!!!!

"when i look in your eyes, i can see that you wanna be with me but you so scared."


just love this phrase. loll.


yeaah. i'm scared.




sigh** there's heineken thirst masterclass tml night.. >.<


which means.. i'll be working till late. :S


but.. yeaa.. i don mind. im going nowhere too. (smile)


no plans. but i gain exposure. :)

a birthday gathering that brings in news.


i was with my group of old friends (the 5 limited).


we had a long chat... so loong that i almost forgot how long we actually spent chattin'

i received shockin' news. news that i never expect to hear. >.<


at that point of time, i felt that... im no longer alone. i'm not the only one going through all these hell.




i've got friends.. and my family. what else do i need ehz?!!!


i guess right now.. my priority lays heavily on FAMILY & FRIENDS!


heeee*** and WORK!!!!! duhhhh~~ loll




coincidentally.. i met my HK friend just now again!!!! for the second time ever since he came to spore this month. goddd!!! that's really so coincidental ehhz.!! phew*** feel quite sad..coz he's leavin' tml. :(
but im lucky to have met him just now (grinz)


bon voyage, my friend!

dEeeeeeEEEE!!! as promised.. the week is almost over.


and i'm almost back. (grinz..)




this week went exceptionally well.. heeee***


lalalalalaaa!!!


had a mini bdae celebration on thurs. hahaaz!! really MINI!!! LOLL! but its cooll!! one word to describe that celebration--> full. >.< (ate alot..!!) and on fri.. went movie with bandmates. loll! an interesting grp of friends. geeez.!! the lakehouse. geeez. no comments for tt movie.. BOOO***

sat.. badd.. badd!!! auntie visit >.< !!!! but i accompanied my mom the whole day :D heee
so at least.. i did sth ehhz. hmmmm.. :S


alright.. there's nth else to write abt nw.. loll!! cheers n beer~

was in depression mode just now.

lollx.



but no longer feelin' so le.


as for the esplanade photos n stuff.. well'' who give a damn ehz?


though i didnt get to bring back wonderful memories from the concert hall.. BUT!!!


i bloooody swear i'll perform at tt blooody concert hall again. and take bloooody lotsa photos!!


loll!!! *** overheard tt ksws gonna perform for next year's beautiful sunday. heeeee!!!!


i bloooody swear i'm in it!! heheheeez!! lalalalaaa!!!!




as for working life.. well.. bloooody indiee!! if you love torturing mee.. well''' by al l means mann!


bring ur full force overrr!!!!! for all i care.. i've only got less than 2 mths of internship theree.. sooo.. lalalalaa.. lets see how much u can torture meee!! BOOOO*****

alright.. my good friend just feedbacked to me. asking y hv i been so sad on my blog lately.

loll.


alright.. lemme type a happy n joyous one today thenn.. :D



im still in the office now..
damnn. wtf ehz.
but.. tml..hehee.. my whole team will be out for client meeting..heee..
AGAIN!

i'll be FREEEEE!!!!

thanks peepx!!! thanks for comin' to my concert!!


performance was great!!! enjoyed myself totally.. phew!


cant imagine i've hit my goal!! i've actually performed at esplanade today!!!


but well.. didnt get to enjoy much after all..


was totally pissed.. and annoyed.




** hey dude, if ya gonna be such a bastard again. i'll ignore you.**


godd!!! cant believe it just totally spoiled my day.. hoooooosah!! zzz..


it's like so ' AS IF'!!!


zz.. just wanna bring back some memories of my first esplanade performance.. but WHATEVER!!!!




nvm.. in the end... i had a wonderful dinner with my ksws horn mates. yeaa.. they really show face ehhz. loll. honoured!!!


been wanting to keep improving with my skills.. let them see that i've been improving. and not slacking down. :D soo.. im proud to present em' the musart wind orchestra.. the band that truely has my existance. heeeeeee***


well well.. im still thinking whether or not to guest play for ksws concert in nov.. :S hmmm.. alright.. im really tired.. going back to sleeeep. tataa.

note: ** i slept dead once i'd reached home. n now.. intermission's over. going back to sleeeep. work again. TML!!!

my goal for now
1) forget about everything.. & start my life all over again
2) excel in work. score well for ipp. :D
3) play as much as i can. make sure that i enjoy more than anyone else's do!


i guess... i do deserve all these ehz.?


hahahaaaz! going out and have fun already..tataa!

i feel as though i hv no 'active' friends now.


what's the point of having so many friends ehz?


when you really need one.. none appeared.


was talking to hebemon that night... sad to say...yeaa.. where's all my friends?


been busy all these while.. n when i finally stopped and looked around for friends.. they werent there.





am i the one who's drifting away..
or you, the one who's trying to drift further away.


you were the one who told me 'friends care for each other'..
and now.. i guess im not even your friend ehz.?
coz i feel like ya treatin' me so coldly. so shitly.


you treat every other friends the same.
i know.
but now... i felt as though im the outdated friend ehz.
a friend that you don wanna be with anymore. not anymore.


well... if that is it.. then have fun hangin' out with your 'new' friend ehhz.


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was travelling back home alone last night.
turned on my shuffle.


started listening... and there.. my fav. song comes in. 死性不改
mind ya.. i've been learning this cantonese song for some time and guess what.?


i only understand it last night. on the train.


it seems so 'me'.


last night's feast and ice-cream melted right away. went wasted.


there goes my mooood. BOO***


tell you what.. pleaseee don't leave me alone doing nothing ehhz. i'll start thinking.. n thinking.. n thinking...

work sucks as usual.. sucks to the core!


BOOOO!!!!


but anyway.. i deserve a day off tml. geez..


gonna sleeep till i dieee!! sleeep till i cant wake upp!!


hahahaaz. hope so much that i don wake up. > . <

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though i finished work kinda late today.. but.. i had a splendid dinner.


heee***


the best dinner i had for the past few weeks. was really cheered up by the foood.. the ice-cream.


godd..can i have tt everyday ehz?! lol.




i swear!! i must rest n enjoy my day tml!!!! I BLOOODY SWEAR!! so.. pls don spoil my day ehhz.. heeeee***
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while having dinner.. my friend was listing down all the numbers that's appearing up in my life..
1...2...3...4...5...6...

been playing too much lately.


shouldnt go anywhere further...



not gonna drink heineken like mineral water..

lollx.


not gonna electrocute anyone..


am gonna pay full attention @ work!!! BOOO***


i can MAKE ITTT!!!


i will survive.. without anything.. anyone..


just me.. alone.. will do.

been playing too much lately.


shouldnt go anywhere further...



not gonna drink heineken like mineral water..

lollx.


not gonna electrocute anyone..


am gonna pay full attention @ work!!! BOOO***


i can MAKE ITTT!!!


i will survive.. without anything.. anyone..


just me.. alone.. will do.

mind went unclear.


head turned heavy.



what a bizarre night i had.


lights shone onto me.



i can't see your face.


i cant remember either. lol.



last night event was a successful one. well.. i'm not sure if everything was successful.. at least, my part was a successful one. heee*** i can manage people!!!! yippieee!!!!


went havoc after the event.. started toasting n dancing. hahhaaaz!!! nice one! the most enjoyable night ever!!!!

questions started running inside my head.
*who?*what?*when?*where?*why?*how?

it doesnt matter anymore.
(grinz**)
i'm singing again~
lalalalalalaaaa..

cheer up people!!!~


i've cheered up! what about you guys???!!


haiyoooo..there's nothing to be sad about kaez!!! BOOO***


let me tell u a joke..heheheez!


"a caterpillar has 100 left leg & 100 right legs. why will there be only 99 left legs and 100 right legs when it turned left ehhz?"


alright.. whoever got this difficult question correct.. will receive a mysterious gift frm DEELIM.


p.s type ur answer on my tagboard. the administrator will get back to you asap.

the answer will be revealed tml in my next entry. tag fast ehh!

me see far.

and think far.



now see none.

see things mild.



bring faith back.

my o lord.



come new motto.



aucune espérance

alright.. ignore me.
im an unreasonable bitch.

6mins to end of lunch break..
zzz.. ciao

sometimes.. it really makes me wonder alot..
the old motto that's been kept in my museum reappears again.

i used to carry this thinking that.. whenever you r at ur best happiest moment.. it means that something really bad is gonna happen. and yeaa.. today is the suckiest day ever. godd.. please get me out of heree.. im sufferin'!!!

i ve never been so furious before. was so furious that i trembled while tellin' my friend what happened an hour ago.

zz.. update later.. bye