deelim is back!!!


whew..!!! sunday went unexpectedly well..!!


played quite alrightly..lollx. not bad~~ and moood was alright as well.


so..yeahh!! i guess im backk!! hahahaaz. there's nth tt's impossible for me after all.


lollx!! i'm always fine. duhhh!!!


n yuxuan.. > . < i'm FINE larhhz. loll.


always send me sms(s) like as though i donnoe hw to take care of myself liddat.


poutx!! don loooook down on me kaeeee!!!hahahaaz.


remember? i'm... STRONGGG!!!


lollx!!! i'm back! i'm backk!!!!


the hack care... chirpy... sweeeet deelim is BACKKK!!!!!

lalalalalaaa.. going for band laterrr..


hahahaaz!!!


i miss my french horn!!!!!!


**alwritee.. i'm just bored. zz.. waiting for mummy to finish her looong bathe..
my toilet gives queue number one kaez! hahahahaaz


alwrite.. she's done! im going off.. ciao~

i had a long sleeep
perhaps. i've always been needing one.
a long long long sleep.


slept more than 15hrs.
i almost thought... i'm not gonna wake up.


>.<


yesterday's kbox.. "girls n linky talk".. and movie was great!
heee** i must say.. i guess we had never gone out together before ehhx.
me. jo. linky.


hmm.. well well.. it turned up to be wonderful group.


they taught me what should be done. what should not.
and i neeeeda boost my self-confidence level from NOW ON!!!
BOOOO*****


will not be this stooopid..lousy..loser anymoreee!!!


well..yeapppp!! wait till u see the new ME!

wonderful saturday..

had a shitty week.. but well.. i've got wonderful saturday! (smilez)

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at night i told myself
to like
to care
to think
seems like a tiring chore

y not try to be blind
be deaf
be senseless
does that makes me feel better?

not think far
be pessimistic
think of the worse
does that makes me feel happier?

if he's mine. he'll get himself bundled up to a gift.. delivered to me on my doorstep.
hahaz.. if he isnt suppose to be mine. loll. friends forever thenn!! hahahaaaz.

yesterday.. seems so illusionary.. it should just remain blurred.

my first time...

(1) showing my friends my super- siann- look..

- "sorry guys.. am really tired. so tired that..hmm..the emo me came out."

(2) feel extremely lightened up when listening to concert.

- that i must say.. hmm.. been kinda long time ever since i watch someone else's concert. it's great! that hour of concert just made me forget about everything.. forget where i am.. forget what im here for.. pheww.. really put my shoulder down and enjoy the concert.

(3) feel unhappy over the song that's been repeating over my head. its inside. damnnn..

imagine someone who's tired out.. and thenn.. this stooopid song kept ringing inside her head. and then.. every single things started to make her feel annoyed.
- i started feeling unhappy over my groaning stomach. zzz.. (am hungry again..)

(4) was my first time wanting to sit down alone... and mute myself.
- just.. tired i guess. :S

i wasnt really in a great condition to accept jokes then.. sorry guys if i acted so weirdly just now. hmmm.. TIRED LARHZ!!!

alwritee.. my energy is going empty sooon.. shall continue tml thenn.. hmm..

sorry sorrrrry!!!! (X infinity)

was with my colleague this whole evening.. didnt want to go home..
as she smoked.. we had heinekens.. had a long chat.. talked abt almost 'everything'..
held her cigarette while she smsed her lover with a troubled face.. we are all facing troubles..
*** my first time holding a cigarette sia.. pengz.. it stinks.. zzz.. loll

hey gina.. its really nice having u here with me today.. really appreciate it.

we dragged ourselves home.. yawnx.. what a long night..

pheww!! wonderful night!! hahahaaaz!!!

GIIII cheered up my daY~~~ heeee >.<
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i promise.. wont taking drinking as a habit ehhz..
yup.. i promise!!

but.. it feels good.. loll

i wanted to blog so badly last night.. and the damn blogger server wasnt working. zzzz.. >.<
imagine how furious i was ehhx!!! anyway.. yeaa..blogger.com.. please bring out this issue to ur management ehh!!!! ************************************* was out with linky, jo, ys, ernt, ariel, weiqiang (did i get ur name right? ops~), tim n dinny.. phew!! had a pretty lonnng dinner..heheheeez. ate 2 rounds.. loll.. main dish plus dessert..LOL. we meet up @ marina square's food court.. godd.. the food was aweful.. and so not worth it larhz. ordered some japanese set meal.. with like 2/3 of it.. full of garlics and sauce.. pengz.. >.<
so.. linky n i actually brought out the issue to the management of this big gathering.. (erhmm.. timothy ho). WE WANT MORE FOOOOOD!!
so we bidded goood-bye to ys,ernt,ariel n wq.. n we headed for more fooooood.
this time round..hehehee.. the management was taken over by lincoln gu..hahahaaz.
we fired TIM HO!!!! bleahhhx. and then Lincoln gu was fired as well..lollx.. coz he couldnt find a nice place to eat.. so Deanna L. took over everything..and..guess what?!!
hehehee..we ended up eating at Cafe Cartel. loll.. waffles and pancakes..heheeeee..drroooolingg..

that's abt it actually.. we talked alot.. n kept teasing timothy.. heheee***
don take it too hard ehhz, dude!!
smilez**** we are harmlessss.. hahahahaz!!!

 

Wonderful Saturday 22/7/06

What a beautiful saturday.. heeee** went out with jo in the afternoon.

and u know what? hahahaz!! we wore the same jersey so coincidentally that day!!!

LOL!! that LUMPARD!! BOOOO*****

alright.. we talked throughout the whole afternoon.. discussed some serious matters.

lol!! wanna knw what serious matters? lalalalaaa.. private and confidential! lol >.<



we went to this hongkong restaurant @ Marina Square for dinner. heee.. nice fried buns ehhz?

*btw.. we took this photo on purpose..hehee..coz 'man tou' from superband had been eliminated.. heheheee**

well well well.. the next one might beee... Jthree? hahahahaaz =P (Jo's gonna KILL MEEE!)

last but not least.. isnt this beautiful? heheee..**

 

Musical Friday, 21st July 2006
work was as taxing as ever. even though it was.. well.. today is my proudest day ever!!!
hahahaaz! finished whatever i had on my 'plate'. pheww..!! suddenly feel that.. wow! im doing everything all within the timeline!

right..right.. let's not talk about work.
weekends comin'!!! heeee***

well.. my weekends just started not long ago.. loll!! my evening was a great one!
had yummy foooood.. listened to relaxing music... enjoy the slience...
best friday ever~ LOLx

well well.. thanks dude! really nice hanging out with ya. in case u still dont knw!! LOL! its really nice going out with u. :D thanks mann~!!

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just finished watching 'battle royal'. lol. one of our LINCOLN's ALL TIME FAVoRitE!!! hahahaaaz!! well.. this time i have to agree with lincoln!! o goddd!! it's AWESOME!!!!

BANG! BANG!! BANG!!!

i actually wrote a very long entry... but something went wrong during the publishing process.. damn!!
so i ll just summarize whatever i've wrote just now.
phew***

(**titanic medley trails in...***)

ok.. for no specific reason.. err.. i ve been listening to this 'titanic medley' for an hour already. lol!

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i had a wonderful day just now.. only just now (after i stepped out of the office!) poutx**
lol~ actually today wasnt toooo bad in the office. my boss was kinda in a GOOOOD mood..

anyway.. i had a nice dinner.. super filling!! hahahaaz..!

god.. i cant remember what else i wrote just now!!! arghh~~@#$%^&*()_!!!

ermm.. hmm..damn!!

shall forget what typed.. this is the NEW ENTRY! zzzz >.<
am pissed off with this stooooopid blogger.

hmm.. ok..i agree, the titanic medley sounds really saddening..

feel like crying mann...

well..there's nth much to cry about ehhz..
i shared lotsa stuff with my friend just now during dinner.. hmm.. told him lotsa stuff.. stuff that i dont normally talk about.. my thinkings.. my concepts.. my perceptions..

feel so much better after sharing em' out.. phew**

was saying how stress work was.. and when he asked:' what's so stress abt work?'
i suddenly couldnt tell him what's so stress.. i donnoe why.
normally i ve got zillions of complains about work.. but now.. i couldnt list them out.

suddenly feels tt.. the stress doesnt comes physically now ehhhz.. its comes mentally.
just feeeeel stress. feel disappointed with myself. feel how dumb i am. how stupid i am. self-proclaimed to be strong.. but act like a coward. am good in nothing. zzz.. depress larhz.

sometimes i ve been wondering... who will like this kinda me ehz? guess no one would bahz. the me.. with full of weaknesses.

well o' well.. many people saw my msn personal message last night. and am wondering what's with the 'no longer alone' thingee!?!!

just feelin' really safe and sound now. hmm.. i've got friends who are willing to be with me.. and even though from the beginning, i'm not really very close to felicia.. but well, she's been a fairly good course-mate ever since we were being dumped at batesasia & 141 worldwide. LOL.

i think we can write a book about how we survived through the entire attachment period. hahahaz.. its really unbelievably "Excitin"!

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I met Timothy this morning!! hahhaaaz!! was totally shock to see him.. ( coz i nv want to see him) hehehe.. kidding larhz! he seems stronger now.. lol! could feel his arm muscles just by sittin' beside him..(kinda uncomfortable though..err..squeezy ehhz!) hehee.. kidding kidding!!!!

guess he'll probably kill me when he reads this entry.. :P

work went on finE.. except for some perfectionists..zzzz.. who pay attention to the spacing and some unnecessary stuff on the briefs.. >.< COM'ON!! the people who reads the brief wont care how much spacing u had inserted ehz!!! arghh!! but whatever.. as long as ya happy ehh.. i just needa "backspace" a bit.. or press "enter" a few more times.. zzzz.. as long as ya happy, yeah?

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with regards to my previous entry.. ermm.. just ignore the 'i like u' sentence ehhz.. zzz..
don't think it make sense now. hmm.. will stay as it is for now.

i just want to be his "solution" and not bringing him more "problems".

if its more comfortable like it is now.. well.. y not stay as it is ehz?

cheers'

its been an extremely long & busy week for me.. n u knw what?my week hasnt end yet. LOL.
i guess no one can actually feel what im feeling now ehhz..
am glad that i'm now in charge of some small projects in my company.. heee** cant wait to see the final products!!!

**-**-**-**
sometimes i ve been wondering.. 'what the hell am i doing?!!'

** i think i like you..**


zzz..

have you wondered how many times can u disappoint someone?

well, i have no idea how far i can go...

how do i get rid of this 'disappointment' away from me...

i don't own disappointment.
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How I wish I could surrender my soul;
Shed the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing.

How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning.

I guess it's time I run far, far away;
find comfort in pain,All pleasure's the same:
it just keeps me from trouble.Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words:
it's just tears and rain.

How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;
Hold memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell
How I wish I would save my soul.
I'm so cold from fear.

I guess it's time I run far, far away;
find comfort in pain,All pleasure's the same:
it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.

Far, far away; find comfort in pain.
All pleasure's the same:
it just keeps me from trouble.
It's more than just words:
it's just tears and rain.

Life goes on as usual.. and if u ask me "how have you been?" well.. i'll answer:" as usual..." for donnoe whatever reason.. my world seems so blue.. so dark.

and i've even been thinking about some saddish stuff.. like erhmm [[what will happen if my parents leave me alone in this world?]], [[ what will happen if i die earlier than them?]], [[ what will happen if i just die suddenly..]]. doesnt sounds like me ehhz..

i've got no idea why am i thinking all those unnecessary stuff. it turns my mood upside down..
and there was once, i even cried while thinking about it. zzzzz.. (i'm a crybaby) lol.

had a haircut this afternoon.. and while the hairstylist was washing and massaging my hair.. i felt soooo relaxed. really let down everything and my brain started saying:" i've been going through so much stuff recently.. i feel so stress!"
and guess what? hmm.. i felt so much happier after that. phew!!

don worry!!! i can do it! i'm the man!!!!

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